24th Nov ‘07
It is amazing how life brings together many occurrences at just the right time in order to push the limits and therefore go beyond the normal everyday ‘seeing’.
Just such a ‘coming together’ took place for me today. Again the details are not important; suffice it to say there was an overload on the circuit board.
I had come to a place in my practice where I felt ‘found’. I knew what to ‘do’ and I did it. Sure, not as much as I felt I should, but would it ever be enough? Life was comfortable, but there had also been the feeling of an under the surface agitation bubbling around for some time. I can’t put my finger on it, but stirred up on all levels. The blood quietly boiling away in the background.
In the Oneness / Awakened state the insights and experience of all arising in and as the Divine, and the Divine being everywhere and everything (beyond consciousness, the Self, and the mind-body package) has been obvious. This has been consistently tested by life and the obviousness, and the freedom which this brings, fluctuated accordingly.
Despite the freedom of the Oneness state I was aware that the mind was still going, I was still buying into it and really when I felt into it I was still suffering in a way that I thought would have finished many years before. There felt to be lots of changes but essentially I was still the same mess that I had always been, albeit with a more mature stance and view of things.
So after a particularly awful driving lesson, I arrived home and on the back doorstep the barriers broke and the practice which I had been doing for so long fell away. I gave in to the horror of the fact that none of it had truly worked as I had hoped and I was an empty liar. A sense of all of the ribbons which I hadn’t realised I had been holding tightly, and which held life together as I knew it, fell away and I was left with nothing. The tears flowed and seemed that they would never stop.
At first the mind was drawn to a sense of panic. Looking for excuses and reasons - energetic, medical and otherwise - which could explain away what was happening. To give some ground to stand on.
Even with the deeper knowing that it was unexplainable, this reasoning is what had been done forever. I had been feeling bashed down and undermined at a deep level, as if whatever I did wasn’t enough, like I was always being told off and sent back to the beginning. Obviously, this feeling was mind made and had been given a storyline which I also knew was only to help me feel valid in some way. When spoken aloud to Elysha, after he found me in a heap on the doorstep, it was known that it was for the last time.
As the possible reasons where given voice they were seen to be totally wrong and with this seeing the mind, manifestation and everything in it was again clearly seen to be entirely separate from the real beauty of this One that I am. It was also seen that the Self was an impermanent manifestation which was absolutely not required.
This had been seen before on many occasions, but not to this depth of clarity. The panic abated at this time, as the separation from the mind left the space to settle. The experience was stand alone and unable to be touched on any level, not being done or able to be manipulated, only happening and that was it. This movement of trying to find out ‘why’ then fell away, there was no need left. With that Elysha and I got ready and went down to the Ashram.
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Monday, March 24, 2008
21st March & 8th April ‘08
Fri 21st March ‘08
Nothing, literally means nothing.
To be free of the Self should not be underestimated.
Time has been shown to be necessary for the physical and physiological changes to settle into the system. There are still moments when it feels like a personification of 'The Scream' painting by Edvard Munch, but this is always a physical reaction to being around selfish behaviour. In most moments though the beauty of the flow of life is seen. Both are the same. In reality there is no difference between these two seemingly opposite reflections of life and that sameness is the beauty of seeing things as they are, not getting lost in the appearance of life.
There is still no experience arising internally so that has become the normal everyday status and is not noticed anymore. This is a blessed relief from the former turmoil which would come in cycles and throw the system from one extreme (frustration) to the other (bliss). These cycles had gotten less extreme and more subtle over the years in the Oneness/Awakened state, which brought more balance, but it was felt nonetheless.
When relaxed and the eyes close, while sitting at the Ashram, the world dissolves and it leaves the body with the head lolling about as if it is asleep. There is no-one there to hold the head up and no-one there to care. These sittings are very still and very peaceful.
If only we could all learn to live as this One, the planet would be a true delight. In time the Ashram will be a place where service alone is lived. The sooner the better. Instead of building the Self up, we will be tearing it down by simply getting out of the way and choosing the love of the Heart.
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Tues 8th April ‘08
There is only peace. All else is a lie.
Nothing, literally means nothing.
To be free of the Self should not be underestimated.
Time has been shown to be necessary for the physical and physiological changes to settle into the system. There are still moments when it feels like a personification of 'The Scream' painting by Edvard Munch, but this is always a physical reaction to being around selfish behaviour. In most moments though the beauty of the flow of life is seen. Both are the same. In reality there is no difference between these two seemingly opposite reflections of life and that sameness is the beauty of seeing things as they are, not getting lost in the appearance of life.
There is still no experience arising internally so that has become the normal everyday status and is not noticed anymore. This is a blessed relief from the former turmoil which would come in cycles and throw the system from one extreme (frustration) to the other (bliss). These cycles had gotten less extreme and more subtle over the years in the Oneness/Awakened state, which brought more balance, but it was felt nonetheless.
When relaxed and the eyes close, while sitting at the Ashram, the world dissolves and it leaves the body with the head lolling about as if it is asleep. There is no-one there to hold the head up and no-one there to care. These sittings are very still and very peaceful.
If only we could all learn to live as this One, the planet would be a true delight. In time the Ashram will be a place where service alone is lived. The sooner the better. Instead of building the Self up, we will be tearing it down by simply getting out of the way and choosing the love of the Heart.
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Tues 8th April ‘08
There is only peace. All else is a lie.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
TrueNatureCentre.com
Those of you who are truly ready to let go and live open handed as the Divine source of life have found the right place. (www.TrueNatureCentre.com)
All that is being shared here is from Julie Sarah Powell's direct experience.
It has all taken place due to practicing and living Elysha's teaching which brought about stabilisation in the Oneness / Awakened state of self realization in December 2003. A further falling away of the Self transpired in December 2007.)
During this process (the dissolution of Self) a seeing occurred which has brought complete ease to the practice of Elysha's teaching, and is shared in detail in the Powerful Peace Program™.
This seeing explains how to bring every man into his / her true nature, very quickly and easily if intensely implemented into the day to day routine of life. Poetically speaking, the act is drawing the Divine through the Self or mind-body package to the point where the Divine takes over and lives itself.
Everything here would not be available without Elysha’s sharing’s and continued love and support over these many years. Ever since meeting Elysha, in February 2003, and the actual beginning of practicing Elysha’s teaching, in May 2003, I had been looking for an anchor with which to solidify and bring consistency to my practice. This looking was not an overt manipulation or thought, just something which was always in the background. It was known that living in the natural state had to be easier than I was making it out to be.
Since the start I could feel the beauty and precision involved in cutting past the baggage and focusing only on the real, which meant that the Self / mind-body package was not being fed, and therefore at some stage it would die and fall away. It really did appear to be a hard and long process though. It seemed to only be through lots and lots of hard work that insights and breakthroughs occurred.
With this new seeing finally an easy anchor was found.
This is now being brought into the routine of others and is having immediate results.
You can find the freedom of your True Nature now, visit Julie’s website for more information. http://www.TrueNatureCentre.com
All that is being shared here is from Julie Sarah Powell's direct experience.
It has all taken place due to practicing and living Elysha's teaching which brought about stabilisation in the Oneness / Awakened state of self realization in December 2003. A further falling away of the Self transpired in December 2007.)
During this process (the dissolution of Self) a seeing occurred which has brought complete ease to the practice of Elysha's teaching, and is shared in detail in the Powerful Peace Program™.
This seeing explains how to bring every man into his / her true nature, very quickly and easily if intensely implemented into the day to day routine of life. Poetically speaking, the act is drawing the Divine through the Self or mind-body package to the point where the Divine takes over and lives itself.
Everything here would not be available without Elysha’s sharing’s and continued love and support over these many years. Ever since meeting Elysha, in February 2003, and the actual beginning of practicing Elysha’s teaching, in May 2003, I had been looking for an anchor with which to solidify and bring consistency to my practice. This looking was not an overt manipulation or thought, just something which was always in the background. It was known that living in the natural state had to be easier than I was making it out to be.
Since the start I could feel the beauty and precision involved in cutting past the baggage and focusing only on the real, which meant that the Self / mind-body package was not being fed, and therefore at some stage it would die and fall away. It really did appear to be a hard and long process though. It seemed to only be through lots and lots of hard work that insights and breakthroughs occurred.
With this new seeing finally an easy anchor was found.
This is now being brought into the routine of others and is having immediate results.
You can find the freedom of your True Nature now, visit Julie’s website for more information. http://www.TrueNatureCentre.com
Beyond Self Now.com
Those of you who are truly ready to let go and live open handed as the Divine source of life have found the right place. www.TrueNatureCentre.com
All that is being shared here is from Julie Sarah Powell's direct experience.
It has all taken place due to practicing and living Elysha's teaching which brought about stabilisation in the Oneness / Awakened state of self realization in December 2003. A further falling away of the Self transpired in December 2007.)
During this process (the dissolution of Self) a seeing occurred which has brought complete ease to the practice of Elysha's teaching, and is shared in detail in the 'How To' E-booklet.
This seeing explains how to bring every man into his / her true nature, very quickly and easily if intensely implemented into the day to day routine of life. Poetically speaking, the act is drawing the Divine through the Self or mindbody package to the point where the Divine takes over and lives itself.
Everything here would not be available without Elysha’s sharing’s and continued love and support over these many years. Ever since meeting Elysha, in February 2003, and the actual beginning of practicing Elysha’s teaching, in May 2003, I had been looking for an anchor with which to solidify and bring consistency to my practice. This looking was not an overt manipulation or thought, just something which was always in the background. It was known that living in the natural state had to be easier than I was making it out to be.
Since the start I could feel the beauty and precision involved in cutting past the baggage and focusing only on the real, which meant that the Self / mindbody package was not being fed, and therefore at some stage it would die and fall away. It really did appear to be a hard and long process though. It seemed to only be through lots and lots of hard work that insights and breakthroughs occurred.
With this new seeing finally an easy anchor was found.
This is now being brought into the routine of others and is having immediate results.
You can find the freedom of your True Nature now, visit Julie’s website for more information. http://www.TrueNatureCentre.com
All that is being shared here is from Julie Sarah Powell's direct experience.
It has all taken place due to practicing and living Elysha's teaching which brought about stabilisation in the Oneness / Awakened state of self realization in December 2003. A further falling away of the Self transpired in December 2007.)
During this process (the dissolution of Self) a seeing occurred which has brought complete ease to the practice of Elysha's teaching, and is shared in detail in the 'How To' E-booklet.
This seeing explains how to bring every man into his / her true nature, very quickly and easily if intensely implemented into the day to day routine of life. Poetically speaking, the act is drawing the Divine through the Self or mindbody package to the point where the Divine takes over and lives itself.
Everything here would not be available without Elysha’s sharing’s and continued love and support over these many years. Ever since meeting Elysha, in February 2003, and the actual beginning of practicing Elysha’s teaching, in May 2003, I had been looking for an anchor with which to solidify and bring consistency to my practice. This looking was not an overt manipulation or thought, just something which was always in the background. It was known that living in the natural state had to be easier than I was making it out to be.
Since the start I could feel the beauty and precision involved in cutting past the baggage and focusing only on the real, which meant that the Self / mindbody package was not being fed, and therefore at some stage it would die and fall away. It really did appear to be a hard and long process though. It seemed to only be through lots and lots of hard work that insights and breakthroughs occurred.
With this new seeing finally an easy anchor was found.
This is now being brought into the routine of others and is having immediate results.
You can find the freedom of your True Nature now, visit Julie’s website for more information. http://www.TrueNatureCentre.com
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