20th Dec '07
At first the deep sense of peace and beauty carried on, but later that day the body was left exhausted and for the next few weeks the body awoke every morning in a state of exhaustion, as if there was no internal energy to do anything and no-one there to care. It felt that there was a heavy weight pushing down, making every move a chore which needed to be gone through. As if a thousand hands were grasping at the cellular structure and squeezing. I started to take a handful of vitamins and herbal supplements to attempt to alleviate the stress on the body. Plenty of deep breathing seemed necessary, as if this would stop the body from falling down and disappearing into nothingness. It was felt that one day the breathing and trembling will stop and everything will disappear with it. For now though the breathing appears to help to get through the harder physical aspects and seems to bring more physical stamina and step by step life goes on.
When the exhaustion of the body got too much over the ensuing weeks and it was mentioned to others, it was received with surprise that anything had been occurring at all. On the surface it appears that nothing was noticeable. This initially struck me as amazing, as I had been arriving at the Ashram for each session with the energy reserves so depleted that as soon as the bum hits the seat tears of relief spring to the eyes. Not touched emotionally, it just appeared to be a physical reaction. Even sitting in the chair sometimes was too much to bear and the body screams to lie down. Thank God for the freedom and simplicity of life at the Ashram. A true blessing.
The day to day chores and mechanical flow of life all continued as before, but with no energy going into them. Pushing through in some moments and melting into the abyss in others, no choice in any of it. During sittings it was felt that the body and all of existence was melting and would never return again. When the end of the session came and the responsibilities of life started up again the moves would occur and life would go on as usual.
Internally, however, was a whole new paradigm. The perspective had shifted to a whole new sense. The mind was still functioning, but restricted to a strictly practical level. Not a constant burble and with no energy to touch this place. Like a waterfall in slow motion, which defies gravity and seems to float quietly past making no ripple within itself and touching nothing. Only spontaneously emerging when needed and then fading away again.
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Monday, March 24, 2008
29th & 30th Dec ‘07
Sat 29th Dec ‘07
Over the past few days I have mentioned some changes to Elysha and the family at the Ashram. It is so very difficult to describe, such simplicity is stand alone, and there is also no urge to bother describing. It was only when asked a direct question from Elysha that the attempt was made. All that can be said at this stage is this:-
There is the feeling of being finished. The end. The attention is held right here, in the body, in the moment, with no-one and no-thing. The depth of feeling and connection at the eyes when open and closed is no longer here. There is no internal centre. There is no feeling at all other than the senses operating. It is as if all of the doors to the mind have been shut. Nothing scary, nothing monstrous, just nothing here.
It reminds me of math problems. All my life when a math problem comes up, it is as if the mind doesn’t know how to cope with it somehow and therefore it is just left empty, stuck, blankly staring like a rabbit caught in the headlights. As a child this made me feel as though I was stupid, but as I grew up I came to accept it and was more than happy to leave others to figure things out. Occasionally, when the need was really there I was able to push beyond the blank and make the effort to ‘figure out’ the problem, but that ability is not available here. Now there is no need for a math problem, the mind cannot reflect on anything and everything which is is blank.
On the day to day level everything has become as normal. Much more simple. Natural. If something is required from the mind it is here, no-one to go looking and no-one who cares if nothing comes at all.
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Sun 30th Dec ’07
Straight away after sitting down at the Ashram this morning there was an intense feeling which started to shine from halfway between the heart and the solar plexus. Elysha was talking about the mindbody package, and suddenly it struck. That was it. The penny dropped with a clunk. That is what had been missing from the picture over the past weeks. The mindbody package was gone. The Self was gone. There were no internal arisings, no emotions, and no feelings of the package of who I thought I was, which felt like it was just the tip of the iceberg with loads more under the surface. Nothing.
With this revelation the feeling in my chest lit up like a fire and felt as though it was burning and shining like a great beacon of joy. I saw that the Self is dead, in a clear momentary flash. A huge smile suddenly burst out. Joy was breaking through and there was no containing it.
Over the past few days I have mentioned some changes to Elysha and the family at the Ashram. It is so very difficult to describe, such simplicity is stand alone, and there is also no urge to bother describing. It was only when asked a direct question from Elysha that the attempt was made. All that can be said at this stage is this:-
There is the feeling of being finished. The end. The attention is held right here, in the body, in the moment, with no-one and no-thing. The depth of feeling and connection at the eyes when open and closed is no longer here. There is no internal centre. There is no feeling at all other than the senses operating. It is as if all of the doors to the mind have been shut. Nothing scary, nothing monstrous, just nothing here.
It reminds me of math problems. All my life when a math problem comes up, it is as if the mind doesn’t know how to cope with it somehow and therefore it is just left empty, stuck, blankly staring like a rabbit caught in the headlights. As a child this made me feel as though I was stupid, but as I grew up I came to accept it and was more than happy to leave others to figure things out. Occasionally, when the need was really there I was able to push beyond the blank and make the effort to ‘figure out’ the problem, but that ability is not available here. Now there is no need for a math problem, the mind cannot reflect on anything and everything which is is blank.
On the day to day level everything has become as normal. Much more simple. Natural. If something is required from the mind it is here, no-one to go looking and no-one who cares if nothing comes at all.
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Sun 30th Dec ’07
Straight away after sitting down at the Ashram this morning there was an intense feeling which started to shine from halfway between the heart and the solar plexus. Elysha was talking about the mindbody package, and suddenly it struck. That was it. The penny dropped with a clunk. That is what had been missing from the picture over the past weeks. The mindbody package was gone. The Self was gone. There were no internal arisings, no emotions, and no feelings of the package of who I thought I was, which felt like it was just the tip of the iceberg with loads more under the surface. Nothing.
With this revelation the feeling in my chest lit up like a fire and felt as though it was burning and shining like a great beacon of joy. I saw that the Self is dead, in a clear momentary flash. A huge smile suddenly burst out. Joy was breaking through and there was no containing it.
4th Jan ‘08
Fri 4th Jan ‘08
The body is filled with what has now become the usual quiet joy/peace/love/space/isness, which is the base of everything. It is as if every cell of the body is in complete harmony and each cell seems to be emanating gratitude, although it is just the naturally functioning senses and nothing more. This is very difficult to describe to others because the mind immediately turns it into something else. It simply means seeing, feeling, tasting, touching, hearing everything as it is in this moment without the veil of the mind creating something over the top. Simple. This is all that is left when the mindbody package is gone. There are no internal arisings, no knower, no being, and no experience, no-one left. The mind without a feeling centre is left powerless so remains quiet although still there, separate and unable to touch this. A whole new dimension, although everything appears the same.
It has been quite a relief to see that the physical is starting to strengthen. This new beginning seems to be settling in beautifully and quite quickly. Definitely still with strange moments, but easier every day.
Time has warped, with so much daily change. Has it only been a couple of months?
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The seeings and insights, over the years in the Oneness state, have brought levels of maturity, balance and a depth to the experience of life which is entirely clouded and therefore overlooked in the egoic state. Because these insights and seeings have been transitory experiences they cannot be the truth in themselves. Becoming aware of the still, unchanging, ageless centre which is throughout all experience is the base and importance of every insight.
All of these experiences shared here can be tossed in the rubbish. Any experience is not the nothing which is your true nature.
In essence all experiences can only be an unconscious projection from the Self or mindbody package, of the Divine. Not the Divine itself, simply triggered by touching on the Divine.
That which is through all experience cannot be affected by anything. It is only that, which is left when experience is gone.
Now there is no experiencer, nor any experience to be experienced.
The body is filled with what has now become the usual quiet joy/peace/love/space/isness, which is the base of everything. It is as if every cell of the body is in complete harmony and each cell seems to be emanating gratitude, although it is just the naturally functioning senses and nothing more. This is very difficult to describe to others because the mind immediately turns it into something else. It simply means seeing, feeling, tasting, touching, hearing everything as it is in this moment without the veil of the mind creating something over the top. Simple. This is all that is left when the mindbody package is gone. There are no internal arisings, no knower, no being, and no experience, no-one left. The mind without a feeling centre is left powerless so remains quiet although still there, separate and unable to touch this. A whole new dimension, although everything appears the same.
It has been quite a relief to see that the physical is starting to strengthen. This new beginning seems to be settling in beautifully and quite quickly. Definitely still with strange moments, but easier every day.
Time has warped, with so much daily change. Has it only been a couple of months?
---
The seeings and insights, over the years in the Oneness state, have brought levels of maturity, balance and a depth to the experience of life which is entirely clouded and therefore overlooked in the egoic state. Because these insights and seeings have been transitory experiences they cannot be the truth in themselves. Becoming aware of the still, unchanging, ageless centre which is throughout all experience is the base and importance of every insight.
All of these experiences shared here can be tossed in the rubbish. Any experience is not the nothing which is your true nature.
In essence all experiences can only be an unconscious projection from the Self or mindbody package, of the Divine. Not the Divine itself, simply triggered by touching on the Divine.
That which is through all experience cannot be affected by anything. It is only that, which is left when experience is gone.
Now there is no experiencer, nor any experience to be experienced.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
TrueNatureCentre.com
Those of you who are truly ready to let go and live open handed as the Divine source of life have found the right place. (www.TrueNatureCentre.com)
All that is being shared here is from Julie Sarah Powell's direct experience.
It has all taken place due to practicing and living Elysha's teaching which brought about stabilisation in the Oneness / Awakened state of self realization in December 2003. A further falling away of the Self transpired in December 2007.)
During this process (the dissolution of Self) a seeing occurred which has brought complete ease to the practice of Elysha's teaching, and is shared in detail in the Powerful Peace Program™.
This seeing explains how to bring every man into his / her true nature, very quickly and easily if intensely implemented into the day to day routine of life. Poetically speaking, the act is drawing the Divine through the Self or mind-body package to the point where the Divine takes over and lives itself.
Everything here would not be available without Elysha’s sharing’s and continued love and support over these many years. Ever since meeting Elysha, in February 2003, and the actual beginning of practicing Elysha’s teaching, in May 2003, I had been looking for an anchor with which to solidify and bring consistency to my practice. This looking was not an overt manipulation or thought, just something which was always in the background. It was known that living in the natural state had to be easier than I was making it out to be.
Since the start I could feel the beauty and precision involved in cutting past the baggage and focusing only on the real, which meant that the Self / mind-body package was not being fed, and therefore at some stage it would die and fall away. It really did appear to be a hard and long process though. It seemed to only be through lots and lots of hard work that insights and breakthroughs occurred.
With this new seeing finally an easy anchor was found.
This is now being brought into the routine of others and is having immediate results.
You can find the freedom of your True Nature now, visit Julie’s website for more information. http://www.TrueNatureCentre.com
All that is being shared here is from Julie Sarah Powell's direct experience.
It has all taken place due to practicing and living Elysha's teaching which brought about stabilisation in the Oneness / Awakened state of self realization in December 2003. A further falling away of the Self transpired in December 2007.)
During this process (the dissolution of Self) a seeing occurred which has brought complete ease to the practice of Elysha's teaching, and is shared in detail in the Powerful Peace Program™.
This seeing explains how to bring every man into his / her true nature, very quickly and easily if intensely implemented into the day to day routine of life. Poetically speaking, the act is drawing the Divine through the Self or mind-body package to the point where the Divine takes over and lives itself.
Everything here would not be available without Elysha’s sharing’s and continued love and support over these many years. Ever since meeting Elysha, in February 2003, and the actual beginning of practicing Elysha’s teaching, in May 2003, I had been looking for an anchor with which to solidify and bring consistency to my practice. This looking was not an overt manipulation or thought, just something which was always in the background. It was known that living in the natural state had to be easier than I was making it out to be.
Since the start I could feel the beauty and precision involved in cutting past the baggage and focusing only on the real, which meant that the Self / mind-body package was not being fed, and therefore at some stage it would die and fall away. It really did appear to be a hard and long process though. It seemed to only be through lots and lots of hard work that insights and breakthroughs occurred.
With this new seeing finally an easy anchor was found.
This is now being brought into the routine of others and is having immediate results.
You can find the freedom of your True Nature now, visit Julie’s website for more information. http://www.TrueNatureCentre.com
Beyond Self Now.com
Those of you who are truly ready to let go and live open handed as the Divine source of life have found the right place. www.TrueNatureCentre.com
All that is being shared here is from Julie Sarah Powell's direct experience.
It has all taken place due to practicing and living Elysha's teaching which brought about stabilisation in the Oneness / Awakened state of self realization in December 2003. A further falling away of the Self transpired in December 2007.)
During this process (the dissolution of Self) a seeing occurred which has brought complete ease to the practice of Elysha's teaching, and is shared in detail in the 'How To' E-booklet.
This seeing explains how to bring every man into his / her true nature, very quickly and easily if intensely implemented into the day to day routine of life. Poetically speaking, the act is drawing the Divine through the Self or mindbody package to the point where the Divine takes over and lives itself.
Everything here would not be available without Elysha’s sharing’s and continued love and support over these many years. Ever since meeting Elysha, in February 2003, and the actual beginning of practicing Elysha’s teaching, in May 2003, I had been looking for an anchor with which to solidify and bring consistency to my practice. This looking was not an overt manipulation or thought, just something which was always in the background. It was known that living in the natural state had to be easier than I was making it out to be.
Since the start I could feel the beauty and precision involved in cutting past the baggage and focusing only on the real, which meant that the Self / mindbody package was not being fed, and therefore at some stage it would die and fall away. It really did appear to be a hard and long process though. It seemed to only be through lots and lots of hard work that insights and breakthroughs occurred.
With this new seeing finally an easy anchor was found.
This is now being brought into the routine of others and is having immediate results.
You can find the freedom of your True Nature now, visit Julie’s website for more information. http://www.TrueNatureCentre.com
All that is being shared here is from Julie Sarah Powell's direct experience.
It has all taken place due to practicing and living Elysha's teaching which brought about stabilisation in the Oneness / Awakened state of self realization in December 2003. A further falling away of the Self transpired in December 2007.)
During this process (the dissolution of Self) a seeing occurred which has brought complete ease to the practice of Elysha's teaching, and is shared in detail in the 'How To' E-booklet.
This seeing explains how to bring every man into his / her true nature, very quickly and easily if intensely implemented into the day to day routine of life. Poetically speaking, the act is drawing the Divine through the Self or mindbody package to the point where the Divine takes over and lives itself.
Everything here would not be available without Elysha’s sharing’s and continued love and support over these many years. Ever since meeting Elysha, in February 2003, and the actual beginning of practicing Elysha’s teaching, in May 2003, I had been looking for an anchor with which to solidify and bring consistency to my practice. This looking was not an overt manipulation or thought, just something which was always in the background. It was known that living in the natural state had to be easier than I was making it out to be.
Since the start I could feel the beauty and precision involved in cutting past the baggage and focusing only on the real, which meant that the Self / mindbody package was not being fed, and therefore at some stage it would die and fall away. It really did appear to be a hard and long process though. It seemed to only be through lots and lots of hard work that insights and breakthroughs occurred.
With this new seeing finally an easy anchor was found.
This is now being brought into the routine of others and is having immediate results.
You can find the freedom of your True Nature now, visit Julie’s website for more information. http://www.TrueNatureCentre.com
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