20th Dec '07
At first the deep sense of peace and beauty carried on, but later that day the body was left exhausted and for the next few weeks the body awoke every morning in a state of exhaustion, as if there was no internal energy to do anything and no-one there to care. It felt that there was a heavy weight pushing down, making every move a chore which needed to be gone through. As if a thousand hands were grasping at the cellular structure and squeezing. I started to take a handful of vitamins and herbal supplements to attempt to alleviate the stress on the body. Plenty of deep breathing seemed necessary, as if this would stop the body from falling down and disappearing into nothingness. It was felt that one day the breathing and trembling will stop and everything will disappear with it. For now though the breathing appears to help to get through the harder physical aspects and seems to bring more physical stamina and step by step life goes on.
When the exhaustion of the body got too much over the ensuing weeks and it was mentioned to others, it was received with surprise that anything had been occurring at all. On the surface it appears that nothing was noticeable. This initially struck me as amazing, as I had been arriving at the Ashram for each session with the energy reserves so depleted that as soon as the bum hits the seat tears of relief spring to the eyes. Not touched emotionally, it just appeared to be a physical reaction. Even sitting in the chair sometimes was too much to bear and the body screams to lie down. Thank God for the freedom and simplicity of life at the Ashram. A true blessing.
The day to day chores and mechanical flow of life all continued as before, but with no energy going into them. Pushing through in some moments and melting into the abyss in others, no choice in any of it. During sittings it was felt that the body and all of existence was melting and would never return again. When the end of the session came and the responsibilities of life started up again the moves would occur and life would go on as usual.
Internally, however, was a whole new paradigm. The perspective had shifted to a whole new sense. The mind was still functioning, but restricted to a strictly practical level. Not a constant burble and with no energy to touch this place. Like a waterfall in slow motion, which defies gravity and seems to float quietly past making no ripple within itself and touching nothing. Only spontaneously emerging when needed and then fading away again.
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Monday, March 24, 2008
29th & 30th Dec ‘07
Sat 29th Dec ‘07
Over the past few days I have mentioned some changes to Elysha and the family at the Ashram. It is so very difficult to describe, such simplicity is stand alone, and there is also no urge to bother describing. It was only when asked a direct question from Elysha that the attempt was made. All that can be said at this stage is this:-
There is the feeling of being finished. The end. The attention is held right here, in the body, in the moment, with no-one and no-thing. The depth of feeling and connection at the eyes when open and closed is no longer here. There is no internal centre. There is no feeling at all other than the senses operating. It is as if all of the doors to the mind have been shut. Nothing scary, nothing monstrous, just nothing here.
It reminds me of math problems. All my life when a math problem comes up, it is as if the mind doesn’t know how to cope with it somehow and therefore it is just left empty, stuck, blankly staring like a rabbit caught in the headlights. As a child this made me feel as though I was stupid, but as I grew up I came to accept it and was more than happy to leave others to figure things out. Occasionally, when the need was really there I was able to push beyond the blank and make the effort to ‘figure out’ the problem, but that ability is not available here. Now there is no need for a math problem, the mind cannot reflect on anything and everything which is is blank.
On the day to day level everything has become as normal. Much more simple. Natural. If something is required from the mind it is here, no-one to go looking and no-one who cares if nothing comes at all.
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Sun 30th Dec ’07
Straight away after sitting down at the Ashram this morning there was an intense feeling which started to shine from halfway between the heart and the solar plexus. Elysha was talking about the mindbody package, and suddenly it struck. That was it. The penny dropped with a clunk. That is what had been missing from the picture over the past weeks. The mindbody package was gone. The Self was gone. There were no internal arisings, no emotions, and no feelings of the package of who I thought I was, which felt like it was just the tip of the iceberg with loads more under the surface. Nothing.
With this revelation the feeling in my chest lit up like a fire and felt as though it was burning and shining like a great beacon of joy. I saw that the Self is dead, in a clear momentary flash. A huge smile suddenly burst out. Joy was breaking through and there was no containing it.
Over the past few days I have mentioned some changes to Elysha and the family at the Ashram. It is so very difficult to describe, such simplicity is stand alone, and there is also no urge to bother describing. It was only when asked a direct question from Elysha that the attempt was made. All that can be said at this stage is this:-
There is the feeling of being finished. The end. The attention is held right here, in the body, in the moment, with no-one and no-thing. The depth of feeling and connection at the eyes when open and closed is no longer here. There is no internal centre. There is no feeling at all other than the senses operating. It is as if all of the doors to the mind have been shut. Nothing scary, nothing monstrous, just nothing here.
It reminds me of math problems. All my life when a math problem comes up, it is as if the mind doesn’t know how to cope with it somehow and therefore it is just left empty, stuck, blankly staring like a rabbit caught in the headlights. As a child this made me feel as though I was stupid, but as I grew up I came to accept it and was more than happy to leave others to figure things out. Occasionally, when the need was really there I was able to push beyond the blank and make the effort to ‘figure out’ the problem, but that ability is not available here. Now there is no need for a math problem, the mind cannot reflect on anything and everything which is is blank.
On the day to day level everything has become as normal. Much more simple. Natural. If something is required from the mind it is here, no-one to go looking and no-one who cares if nothing comes at all.
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Sun 30th Dec ’07
Straight away after sitting down at the Ashram this morning there was an intense feeling which started to shine from halfway between the heart and the solar plexus. Elysha was talking about the mindbody package, and suddenly it struck. That was it. The penny dropped with a clunk. That is what had been missing from the picture over the past weeks. The mindbody package was gone. The Self was gone. There were no internal arisings, no emotions, and no feelings of the package of who I thought I was, which felt like it was just the tip of the iceberg with loads more under the surface. Nothing.
With this revelation the feeling in my chest lit up like a fire and felt as though it was burning and shining like a great beacon of joy. I saw that the Self is dead, in a clear momentary flash. A huge smile suddenly burst out. Joy was breaking through and there was no containing it.
Sunday, August 5, 2007
Elysha – An Authentic Enlightened Teacher Of The Heart
Finding an authentic enlightened teacher is an extremely difficult task in today's spiritual marketplace. There are so many who are touting themselves as being awakened or enlightened who have absolutely no business in doing so, which leaves the spiritual seeker not knowing which way to turn and who to trust.
In reality it takes a being that is already self realized to be able to discern another one who is also abiding in the same place. Obviously, this again is not very helpful for the spiritual seeker.
This is where I would like to share with you my own personal experience.
In my case I was extremely lucky to find a wonderful teacher who has fulfilled everything He has ever said.
I have known my teacher Elysha for 4 years now and it is only due to my own laziness that realization of the one that I am took 8 months to stabilize, and from then the journey of self discovery began. Each day of the last 4 years has brought more wonder and joy in the grounded, solid being of who I am.
Elysha is an amazingly clear and profound teacher of self-realization and it would be an absolute shame for humanity if Elysha remained unknown to those who wish to be stably home as the heart that they are.
The teaching, which was given to Elysha at His awakening in 1992, is direct and to the point, and once it has been put into ‘practice’ the changes in the way you live and perceive the world will astound you, and the causeless happiness which is felt through the mindbody will make your heart sing.
All you need to do is make that first move of intent and reach out your hand to Elysha and He will grab onto it and His tireless compassion will literally drag you home as quickly as you allow it. As always the onus is on you to set the pace of letting go of this imaginary world of your mind.
Elysha is not here for the faint hearted. For over 10 years it was financially free to visit Elysha, although He was also working a 40 hour week. Elysha even travelled around giving free talks to those who were interested in hearing this message. Now Elysha stays in place in Patea, New Zealand and is fully open and available to anyone who wishes to sit with Him and learn to abide in the joy that you are. There is a nominal daily fee for this pleasure which enables Elysha to be available in this way.
Those who have had enough of the gradual, so called “spiritual”, path of today's new age, enlightenment seeking, and who are truly ready to let go and drop the illusion (which does not actually exist!) and be who they already are will find this daily availability invaluable.
Sounds ridiculous doesn't it? Letting go of an illusion which doesn't even exist, which is only in our imagination. Of course everyone wishes to be energetically free of living a lie. Free from pretending to be a drop when you are the ocean.
Unfortunately, even more ridiculous is the fact that there are not many takers for this simplicity of truly realizing who you are and living the heart on a momentary basis. Not good hearted, but real heart.
In my own case I have fallen deeply in love with Elysha and the gratitude I feel towards His being is beyond words. Elysha's compassion and momentary depth of being have taught me more than I could have possibly hoped to learn in this lifetime and this gratitude will overflow for all eternity.
I had no idea of the rich beauty and depth of who I am, and how deliciously attractive it is to be this one, until Elysha showed me how to disregard the false and directly enter the place of trueness. Moment by moment.
Standing free in this eternal moment. Where the flow of aliveness is.
Elysha can show you just as easily.
In reality it takes a being that is already self realized to be able to discern another one who is also abiding in the same place. Obviously, this again is not very helpful for the spiritual seeker.
This is where I would like to share with you my own personal experience.
In my case I was extremely lucky to find a wonderful teacher who has fulfilled everything He has ever said.
I have known my teacher Elysha for 4 years now and it is only due to my own laziness that realization of the one that I am took 8 months to stabilize, and from then the journey of self discovery began. Each day of the last 4 years has brought more wonder and joy in the grounded, solid being of who I am.
Elysha is an amazingly clear and profound teacher of self-realization and it would be an absolute shame for humanity if Elysha remained unknown to those who wish to be stably home as the heart that they are.
The teaching, which was given to Elysha at His awakening in 1992, is direct and to the point, and once it has been put into ‘practice’ the changes in the way you live and perceive the world will astound you, and the causeless happiness which is felt through the mindbody will make your heart sing.
All you need to do is make that first move of intent and reach out your hand to Elysha and He will grab onto it and His tireless compassion will literally drag you home as quickly as you allow it. As always the onus is on you to set the pace of letting go of this imaginary world of your mind.
Elysha is not here for the faint hearted. For over 10 years it was financially free to visit Elysha, although He was also working a 40 hour week. Elysha even travelled around giving free talks to those who were interested in hearing this message. Now Elysha stays in place in Patea, New Zealand and is fully open and available to anyone who wishes to sit with Him and learn to abide in the joy that you are. There is a nominal daily fee for this pleasure which enables Elysha to be available in this way.
Those who have had enough of the gradual, so called “spiritual”, path of today's new age, enlightenment seeking, and who are truly ready to let go and drop the illusion (which does not actually exist!) and be who they already are will find this daily availability invaluable.
Sounds ridiculous doesn't it? Letting go of an illusion which doesn't even exist, which is only in our imagination. Of course everyone wishes to be energetically free of living a lie. Free from pretending to be a drop when you are the ocean.
Unfortunately, even more ridiculous is the fact that there are not many takers for this simplicity of truly realizing who you are and living the heart on a momentary basis. Not good hearted, but real heart.
In my own case I have fallen deeply in love with Elysha and the gratitude I feel towards His being is beyond words. Elysha's compassion and momentary depth of being have taught me more than I could have possibly hoped to learn in this lifetime and this gratitude will overflow for all eternity.
I had no idea of the rich beauty and depth of who I am, and how deliciously attractive it is to be this one, until Elysha showed me how to disregard the false and directly enter the place of trueness. Moment by moment.
Standing free in this eternal moment. Where the flow of aliveness is.
Elysha can show you just as easily.
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